Not Enough

Do you ever feel like there is no possible way that you can do all that you are supposed to do that day? Everyday I make a list (or ten) of the things that I need to get done that day. I used to be able to knock out my list no problem, but it is becoming more and more common that I am moving things to the next days schedule. I go until 10 or 11 at night every night and just wish there were a few more hours in the day. Something is always neglected. Normally the laundry or dinner or house stuff.  If I get my editing and business work done, then we have something lame for dinner. If I get the laundry done and make something yummy, my work stuff doesn't get done. I just don't know how women do this? Throw in starting school, a church calling, and THREE kids... what does that equal? It doesn't. There is no way to do it all. Sometimes I just get tired, sometimes I just want to sit down with a book a read the whole thing in a day. Sometimes I wish I could just go spend a morning at the temple. I really feel that Satan makes us "too busy". Sometimes we just need to turn the tv off, turn the computer off, turn the phone off and just sit. Sit with our kids and read a book. Sit down on the ground and play dollies with our daughters. Sometimes we just need to let go of everything that "needs" to be done that day and remember why we are truly here. I am really bad at this. I admit it. I run and run and run every day , and than drop in bed every night.  I get this sick feeling in my stomach if I know that there are things that need to be done. I can't sit down and just relax. This is probably something I should really work on, because I know that all too soon my kiddos will be in school and I will really miss having them around all day long. So for today. I am going to try to take a moment to just savor them. To let go of all that I have to do and enjoy them.  Today I am going to try to let go of being enough, and just be.

But of course... I will be back to business tomorrow :)