Happy

I haven't blogged in a bit, because I am just been super crazy busy. BUT.. in all of this business I wanted to sit down and write down some thoughts. Or type out some thoughts!

I am HAPPY. So incredibly happy. I think the happiest I have been in a long long time... like the deep down happy where you wake up with peace in your heart. For the longest time I struggled and from the second I opened my eyes in the morning I would feel this massive weight pushing down on my lungs and suffocating me. Now I am finally free. I feel alive again and that I can be myself again... that I am free to bloom and be who I want to be. I no longer am struggling to conform to something I am not and nor will I EVER try to do that again, because it was soul crushing. There is too much joy in life to be constantly worrying about measuring up to preset and often very unrealistic standards. I feel like so often we are so busy doing the things that we are "supposed" to do that we miss the whole point of this journey... which is to find joy. By no means am I saying that we should have an "eat, drink and be merry" approach to life. I am just saying that sometimes you just have to let go and live.

I have finally let go and gosh it feels so good to be happy again. Today I am happy. Tomorrow my kids may drive me crazy! But today I am happy and oh so glad to be happy.